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CHOICE

There's no way?dont worry i will find one or i will make one...

sodomy

Fate have a way to probe your backside...a hard hitting unsuspecting stroke of luck as they say....i have my own views and you have yours...fate is not ultimately fixed as the will can change the pre-determined....this can be a rambling fool's perspective but this can also be the truth...truth is a flexible concept depending on who's side you're on...chicken shit, fried cocks and steamed butt...fuck the truth and fuck you...go with the flow and you'll end up falling from a 50000 meters waterfall coz the flow gotta end somewhere, might as well end while we're still at the river...songsang sisi songsang lada, mari makan roti jala, songsang jalan mencari bala, baik takyah jalan kita kurangkan suda....pening to the maxxx with triple X...

Call me crazy but this one is for you

You will always have a fucking choice....you let them rule you and your life isnt going to be about you soon, its going to be about what you do to pleased them...and where's that gonna leave you?misreable like you always are...why?because you always so concern about them who in reallity doesent really care about you because they will always have their own selfish agenda's in gaining for their own side...personally i dont think they even care about you other than for you to act so that they feel happy...for once in your life do something that makes you happy...and that shit that goes "im happy if they're happy" kinda crap is a total nonsense because thats just to sooth a bit of your pain...thats like taking drugs, and everybody knows drugs will be your downfall...you are pretty stupid...you may be smart in studies and academics but you suck at making yourself happy...im not saying you should be totally selfish...im saying fuck all of them and make yourself happy for once in your misreable life...why am i being rude?because like them you dont response to a normal conversation...dont give me crap about you think what i've said either coz cleary you dont listen...things that i say would go wrong did go wrong with you...you say you wanted to change...well no change being made and it seems you're going to be in the same state as your first one...people will rot and will do their worst...whats the diffrent with me?i rot long ago and even though im not nice and say things that hurts,its the fucking truth...i dont hide behind pretend manners and nice words...

Feels like im getting old

i think im too tired to be young and hip and everything....feels like its time to settle down...but given the situation and timing right now i still got waaaaaaay to go before anything like that is ever possible...but still, young people seems younger these days and it feels like im separated by an ocean of diffrence between me and someone who is one or two years younger than me...nyways i dont care...fuckallate

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4th dimesional

Here's something that just dont seems to make any sense but the sensless sense nothing while sense's comes from one perception though vary its still there...






shining tears of tundra,
blistering cold confine the freedom,
once freed from the hunger,
now the waves obstruct the ways,
for grief and gloom wandering the air,
peace and solace darken out of place,
shiver consturct the destructions of minds,
clouded in the depth of uncertainty,
vanity collapse in the brink of desperation,
roaming free towards the bliss,
void towering the sight,
those that are grasped are not caged,
burned visions and now its finish,
denied be the absolute,
stuttering rain floods the valley,
pieces stumble across the ocean,
shattered sounds rumbling the ground,
thus its here and it will laired,
and finally this is the absolute end.....

Rockumentary Rock the Mortuary

We the Gustave Romane have this crazy idea to make a documentary or a series of short episode about us and nothing in paticular....i'll be the producer and director and fuck you haters...peace out

Follow Me

Those are the ways to glory

nothing is nothing

i am turning into nothing again...i dont feel sad,sorrow,anger,happy or anything...further down this road is nothing..nothing awaits me...its like sitting inside nothingness of nothing and nothing is going to come to nothing...although to some nothing may be a good news, but i've been there before,its not that pleassureable and also not that suffercating..just nothing...nothingness that bores you day in and day out...before i was lucky to be pulled out of the nothingness of life but right now things are just steady...it makes no sense when it is written in words....but then again nothing makes no sense when it is nothing....before i have a lot and now i have a few...there and then,here and now....destiny rules the nothings or the nothings are nothings?





force and preassure was apply to the nerves and center of the mountains should it breaks or should it lean,towards the sea and onto the stars the wind blows yet again?glitters glow shine the way,for whence it go i do not know.stars stuttered dreams amidst the fog,shall we contain our own thoughts?questions are the answers you might need but then again we might not need the questions at hand for it is all but the same dilema and it is to wonder for the answers and answers are questions.logics governs the mind and actions.sense guides the way.impulse and emotions are often oppose and negate the other way around for it has always been the ways of men.shut forth the eyes,silence the voice and bury the doubts for it is in many ways are knives slitting the sense of man.again when nothing is nothing,everything becomes nothing

Fly and Turn, waves thrust the skies

Jealousy....it is an issue....to have it is one of the symbol of love...but to what extend?too little and it seems like you dont care, too much and you will choke your partner...jealousy is a funny business and it can go really nasty at times...recently i heard stories from someone about their problems with jealousy...its kinda funny actually...cant take the heat?then dont play with fire...stupid....what it seems to me is, people nowdays really dont know how to love someone...they only know how to love somethings....hahaha..really really stupid i tell...kids lemme tell you this,your partner is not a car!they dont exist in this world just to satisfy your own need...they're not suppose to do everything that you want em' to do...its ok to be jealous,but to be jealous over little things to a great extend?thats absurd to the max and beyond...control it or mark these words carefully, Lose your partner..

shit its interesting

fuck it...im in the state that i dont want to be...IN LOVE.....either if im in love with things or with a person, i dont want to be in it...love is a fucking lie...love is the art of deception and i want to be far away from it...stay the fuck away from me!!!i dont want to even come near to love with all those shit

Gravity

funny that im too lazy to write about the shit that happend in perhentian...overall all i can say that it was fun...though now its back to reality...the training for sukma is stepping up since its only a week away now...but shit is what shit is....i know life's a bitch but last week while watching something i realize a cold hard truth...everybody belongs somewhere...and everybody seems to got the other half of them selves...i was wondering when will i find mine...a while back i thought i found it already..turns out it was nothing but hypocryptic...i guess life truly is a bitch...

Island Fever

Just got back from perhentian island and my body is in a little mess coz i cought a fever...must be one of those island thingy...what thingy i dont know...but i think i heard it somewhere before that something something something and you will caught a fever...this boring entry shows you how much i hate getting sick..not only that,i have a friendly match to play tomorrow against the po po mainly the police rugby force..hahaha..what the fuck am i writing...im half awake so i dont really care what others will think anyways...fuck you guys..later i tell you about my vacation...stupid fever~~

In the cover of doubt

Just a quick word before i depart to the Gustave Romane long delayed trip to somewhere sweet and nice...hurm....whats the Gustave Romane?well i'll explain later...for now i want to ramble and shamble about something else...what it is that i want to talk about is kinda unknown to me too...i just feel like writing and thats a common thing to me...this trip is better be good coz lately, if seen through my eyes, there's a lot of tension among us and with our selves...its hard hard to notice but its definitely there....hey, every funcitonal family or system need a break once in a while right?now this system definitely need a break right now because truthfully, everybody been busy this year with their own stuff like career, studies, dreams, family, girlfriends, boyfriend(for hakim la), and stuff like that...we dont hang out often like we use to anymore...but hey thats normal laaa...thats what i call "the price of growing older"....yeah....pretty soon each one of us is going to get married and have a family and we'll be busier than a buzzing bee up in the tree...so as im waiting here waiting for a friend of mine to pick up, im just gonna keep writing everything that came up in my brain....one day the bell will ring and the sun will stop rising and with it, the light that shines our foolish way will fade in vain and for us humans, repent is the only way...but untill that moment, LIVE BIG!!LIVE LIKE CRAZY MOTHER FUCKERS!!LIVE SO THAT YOUR CONTRIBUTION WILL NOT BE IN VAIN!!!just one thing;JANGAN SESEKALI MENYUSAHKAN ORANG LAIN

Going Global

Hye,im sydan...at least thats what they call me...and of course like many other people that walk this earth before me i have a bunch of nicknames,callsign and stuff like that...but usually i encourage them to call me sydan coz its simple and its a part of my real name...who the fuck am i?i like to think my self as a simple person though funny enough a few share of people been labelling me as complicated or sometimes eccentric...some call me weird...but to me, the people who said that are weird coz everytime i ask them why im weird they cant really answer that...funny thing is, i usually write my ramblings on paper coz i love to play around with pen and paper but lately i have a hard time doing so because most of the work done by the modern world nowdays are through the computers and the internet...thats fine with me but a while back, my friend told me that i should start a fucking blog because of something something bla bla bla and something something...so here i am, putting my random thoughts into this thing that you humans called blog...i wonder whats the deal with blogging anyways....but im gonna try either way...fuck this...im going to perhentian island tonight and i still haven't pack yet...a lil feverish is what i feel and impatient....and now, hungry...fuck the world and its will...fuck you warmongers out there, and fuck ourselves